05 January 2010

I wanna go home~~

Seems like a title of a song?Yes, a song by Michael Buble->such a good song~~
Some of the lyrics sound like this:
'I’m surrounded by a million people, I still feel all alone'
I think each people out there would think the same way if they are far, far away from their home.
Same goes to me. I feel empty, live in a bored life. Without my Mom, my family, my friends. Even though my sweetheart was surrounding here,but that's not enough!!
I WANNA GO HOME!
I just called my mom,and said that i missed her so, so much...!!Talking and crying. I heard her voice at the phone sounds like crying too. I asked her,are you crying mom?She denied it,but i can feel she's crying too!
Some of the conversation or chatting between my mom & I
Mom: Hello!
Me : Hello!
Mom: Napa sayang?kau mau balik?
Me : (ish,mami ni mcm tau2 jak aku mau balik. Terus airmata aku berguguran) Ya, saya mau balik,bole ka? (suara masa ni macam kena selsema ->nangis T_T)
Mom: Napa kau nangis?kau rindu mami ka?
Me : (dalam hati 'ya mami,rindu sangat2) Ya.(sambil T_T)
Mom: Ba,kau ikut la along blk nnt 16hb. Napa? Nda dpt keja lagi?
Me : Sudah.
Mom: Jadi?Nda ok ka keja?
Me : Ok,bos pun baik.
Mom: Ba,kau keja jala sana ba.Balik sini pun susa jg mau cari keja. Gaji pun Rm200-Rm300 jak. Ndapa,keja2 dulu ba,baru kau balik sini.Kalau kau rindu mami, telefon2 jala mami k.
Me : (Masa ni airpaip makin mencurah2 jatuh.huhu T_T )Ba,ok.Nnt saya kol2 jala mami k?
Mom: Mami sihat juga sini,jgn la ba kau risau.Mami pun keja jg sini,hantar2 budak sekolah, hujung2 minggu potong getah. Duduk ruma pun boring jg, teda keja mo buat.
Me : Rajinnya mami ni,ba,jagalah kesihatan mami k.Jgn keja kuat sgt.

I said I'll try to work for a month. Then, if i'm not strong enough or not be able to carry the burden anymore, i'll go back to home. Means, this month is like a 'trial month'.
So, I'll see the progression of my work, my condition,& my life for the whole January.
Hope Allah will ease my way & help me to survive here & help me in getting through this hard life which is full of challenges and barriers!Amin..
Yes, thousands of barriers!!

11 comments:

:: cik farah :: said...

b strong my fren!
jgn cpt mngalah.kehidupan adalah satu pelajaran dan pngalaman.
dan ia juga adalah ujian buat kita dari NYA. saba dan belajar lah. insyaAllah semua nya akn baek2 sja.
jgn nanges taw!^_^

-ilyannur- said...

cian ko manja...
bleh pla aku pun macam mo menangis time mami ko tanya ko mo balik ka x...

mAnjA said...

Farah: thanks my fren, now i'm learning to be more stronger than b4!

Lian: ya..sedih btul aku rsa time 2,tau2 jak aku mo balik ni.Naluri ibu kan..

anGGun_ziLLa said...

manja- ala cian...ba ko balik laaa kalu tlampau rindu udaa... tp, ko tahan2 la dlu..ko kan keja...

mAnjA said...

ya,tula.pikir2 klu aku blk sna,1 hal lg mo cri keja.bkn senang kn mo cri keja ni..
skrg ni aku try utk kuat la,tahan hati,sabarkn hati jak stay cni..

jij Abdul Hamid said...

dui ba, kesian.. sbr2 jak manja. mimang la tu kalau mo cr duit susa betul.. mcm2 dugaan. huhu
ak pun mo balik juga suda ni.. pukul 5 suda. ahaha :p

mAnjA said...

cis ko jij!

+ k.y.e.k.o + said...

ergh~ bikin panas tu conversations..bikin sy mngalir air mata jak ba..

Ahmad Zulfadhli said...

kuatkan semangat ye manja.. hadapi semua cabaran yang mendatang dengan kental.. jangan sesekali lemah semangat... :D

kizzy tf said...

thousands of barriers will be overcome by zillions of loves from us.

cant wait u back home! xoxo

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